I Want it Now!


By: Shea Harris

Here lately I’ve been really trying to calm my nerves. Every time God presents me with an idea, I’m ready to jump into it right then and there. Whenever I see a dollar amount that I’d love to have, I want it right then and there. When it comes to anything that I want in my life: it can be materialistic or non-materialistic, I want it. I’ve been trying to weed myself off of this whole instant gratification wave. As a millennial I see accomplishments that can be made in a certain amount of time. Instead of taking my time to get to those accomplishments and sitting through the process, I always want to rush it so I can reap the benefits. It doesn’t help that social media has people portraying instant results or using phrases such as get instant results!

I can only speak for myself, but I’m a bit impatient when it comes to getting what I want. Once I receive what I want, I then want something else. I barely take time out to appreciate what I have in that very moment. I’m always trying to find and search for things to make my life better. Whenever I get what I want and need in my life, I go back asking for more. I always express this fear of getting too comfortable and stagnant in my life but the truth is, I don’t know how to enjoy things. I don’t mean enjoying the fair, a concert or movie. I mean enjoying where I’m at in that moment.

When I lived in Durham, NC, I didn’t really take time to enjoy and see the full potential that the city had to offer me. I honestly was there for work and knew I wouldn’t be there forever. I didn’t actually start to enjoy the city and explore until about 3 months before I moved to Miami. Yes I went to the movies and the mall on my own, but I didn’t tour the Duke Botanical Gardens, hike Eno River State Park or get lost in the city. I pretty much went to work, went to the gym and chilled in my apartment. I didn’t take time out to get to know myself. I was so ready to leave Durham that I didn’t realize the beauty of it until it was too late.

At least once a month I was in Charlotte to see family and friends. I didn’t care about my time in Durham because I knew it was temporary. I made sure that I was making moves and decisions that would push me to progress. Instead of sitting in the moment, I rushed the process and didn’t fully understand why I was placed in Durham. I’d like to think it was to learn more about my industry and bring it to Miami, but I definitely could’ve made a larger impact on people in the Raleigh-Durham area.

Remember to take your time and sit through your transitions. Don’t rush the progress to be made. Rushing into things can often cause you to miss out on others. Take your time and know that progress is a timely thing.

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