By: Shea Harris
It’s been almost a year and I’m happy to say I’ve fallen in love. I haven’t fallen in love with a man, but I’ve fallen in love with a woman named Shea Harris. This past year has been full of ups and downs. I’ve cried, laughed, gotten angry, forgiven, and so much more over this time frame. I didn’t think it was possible, but I fell back in love with myself in a greater way. After moving from North Carolina to South Florida, I started getting back to who exactly Shea was.
I wrote an article for My Black Matters back in December of last year and I look at that message as a reminder. I remind myself that I will not turn back to that woman who continues to give and not receive anything in return. I won’t settle for less. I won’t act as a wife to someone and there’s no ring present. I won’t sit back and allow my emotions to effect my better judgement. If a man loves me and wants to be with me, he will make it known.
I never knew I could fall this deeply in love again, especially with myself. I thought I could only fall this much in love with, well a man. I thought wrong. As soon as I began to pour more attention into myself, God began to open my eyes. He’s opened my eyes to like-minded creatives, creative pathways and so many ideas. The past year has been rough, but I’m so fortunate for the love that has developed from it.
Being selfish this past year has allowed me to take on various opportunities. Without my selfishness, I have no clue what this blog would be looking like. Without my selfishness, I wouldn’t be living in Miami. Without my selfishness, I wouldn’t have been able to reintroduce myself. I wish I would’ve take advantage of the selfish period sooner but you know, better late than never.
I am a strong, courageous, loving, ambitious black woman who is destined for greatness. I love myself more than I could ever imagine. I love who I have become and the platform I have created to encourage and inspire individuals. I love that I am untouchable, unbreakable, and unshakeable. Taking this past year to learn myself all over again has been more than rewarding. If you would’ve told me a year ago I would be blogging right now, I would’ve laughed at you in your face. I’m so thankful for the avenues this journey has brought me through and I look forward to so much more!
I challenge you to fall in love with yourself again. Remember why you create, why you inspire and why you are enough.